BEAUTIFUL UGLINESS

It’s complicated;
When we discover answers 
And the questions change.
When we keep on thinking
How we shouldn't be thinking so much.
 
I get addicted to flowers. 
Even though I know that they will dry one day.
Still, I keep on watering the plant;
Because I have some faith:
“Oh yes, they may repay”.
But they actually never.
Time passes by and they dry up.
Not a petal left that beautiful;
No more happiness I receive.
I never understood.
They never belonged to me
Yet I kept on trying and trying, 
Just acting like a fool.
And my heart was played; 

By someone I knew wouldn't.

                                                   -ANJALI JOSHI